Day Dreamin'

I think about the future. A lot. 

When the time comes, I want to be a mom. A good mom. It seems so strange to think about now..like, me with a baby? WTF? I want to have beautiful children with beautiful spirits. I want to teach them about Heavenly Father and his wonderful plan for us. I want to instill in them confidence and self worth. They will know that they are loved and they will know of their infinite worth. 
But then I can't help but think, Will I be a good mom? Will I know what do do? The thought of sweet little fingers and toes makes me so eager to have a babe.

And what about my education? I graduated from high school 4 years ago. I've been in college since I graduated and no degree to show for it......Makes me feel not so great. I'm trying to become a nurse..it's been my dream since way before it was cool. I guess I'm just taking my time. The pre-req's have been kinda hard for me and I'm not the best at focusing. ADHD from my pops. Thanks Dad :) I know I would be a good nurse. I know it! It's frustrating because nursing programs don't look at who you are as a person, rather they only care about what you look like on paper..aka grades. So that's kinda holding me back. It's discouraging and it makes me feel like I'm a dummy. Ha. So I just need to buckle down for these last 2 semesters and get it done. Wish me luck.

I love Utah but I've been here my whole life. I'd love to get out of this state for awhile and travel around. See the rest of the U.S. Preferably back east or Washington or Oregon. I'll probably end up back in Utah because I love it so much, but I'd really like to experience life outside of Utah. Get a little perspective, ya know? We honestly live in a bubble. Getting out is refreshing. And people need to do it more often. Utah culture can be so closed minded sometimes and it's a little embarrassing. 

I wonder what life has in store for me and what my path will be..


xoxox

C.